Fat days and putting things in perspective

So Fat days ! hummmphhh it's been a while since I've had a true FAT day!!! I remember the fat days pre banding.. the self loathing.. the desperation to loose weight.. the "I'll do anything" vow.. the tears and the fear. The pre banded fat days were dark dark days.

Since being banded I haven't had a day like that .... but today was close ! Whats with that? I am the lowest weight since 2007, any day now I will be at my lowest since I was maybe 12 years old. So why today did I feel so horrible in my skin so sick of my body so sick of all the clothes I own.

Our minds and bodies work in the most crazy ways! I'll never understand it and I think I'll always have to tame the beast that is fat days!

I did have one thought... 6 months is the longest I've ever stuck to anything in the past... So here I am at 6 months and 4 days and no sign of giving up and couldn't self sabotage easily even if I tried! So yay for making the change I cant wait for th 1 year mile stone!!!

So in band news post my fill 2 weeks ago I've had a tight tight band. Fluids mostly since then, I had a stuck incident a week after the fill so went back to fluids. Ive just moved to mushies and they are finally going down nicely! I've noticed that I can only eat 1/2 cup of food over 30mins.

Tonight I had soup potato and leek homemade with leeks from my garden, then 1 egg scrambled with a tablespoon of organic cottage cheese. It took me an hour but i got it all down no slim to vomit no pb's !!!!!

So back to basic band rules

1. No fluids before, during or after meals
2. Eat slow
3. Chew chew chew
4. stay hydrated!!!! drink between meals!!!

K xx

6th months banded....

So today marks 6 months since I was banded!!!!

I feel totally grateful for this amazing experience..

6 months on:

* I have lost 25kg/55lbs
* I have gone from a size 24AU to a mostly 18AU but some 16's!!!!
* My energy levels are through the roof
* I can move better, kneel squat and stand at work for hours with out hurting
* I can RUN... for short periods
* I am exciting about the future
* I have halved one of my blood pressure tablets and stopped another completely.
* My renal function has improved
* I feel alive and so excited for what the next 6 months might bring

and the low's continue... just in time for weigh in day!

I got on 2 different scales this morning 6 times just to make sure they weren't lying!!!I cracked the 10's jumps for joy! So my 6 month goal came a week early........

That's 25.1kg (55lbs) lost in 5months 3 weeks !!!!

Hard to believe as I am bloated to the max at the moment and PMS city.... crazy!

Happy happy Sunday people!

K x

a fill and a new low!

I had a tiny tiny fill on Tuesday.. I almost didn't get a fill but I have had a little hunger the last week! .25cc went in taking me to 5.75cc... so 6cc is where i got into trouble in June with a horrible too tight episode that set me back for over a month! Since Tuesday I have been taking it very ease... soft foods and fluids! I can certainly hear fluid gurgling down there! and have had a few episodes of slim. I am also finding that I need less food to feel satisfied.

So life is crazy busy I have the weekend off which is so awesome! Next weekend marks 6 months since banding... I have often said I will post pics of myself but have often chickened out!! but I have been searching for a before pic and planning on taking a current pic so by next weekend I will be ready to post!

500grams more and I will have lost 25kg in 6 months .... can I do it!!!

Love to ya all

Mwah K xxx