Yesterday I had lunch with my gorgeous friend lets call her Mac. Every time I see her I leave feeling refresh, to some degree she challenges my thinking and always has no problems asking the hard questions.
So a few weeks ago I told her and her husband over lunch that I had booked to have LAP band surgery. She was quite stunned I think. So when we met for lunch yesterday she had processed, obviously discussed it at length with her husband and was armed and ready to hit me up with the questions!!! She is lucky I love her!
She asked all sorts of things, date, surgeon, time off work and cost. She also asked if I had already had some counselling .... She stated that she was worried... wasn't sure she agreed with it.. concerned I wouldn't be able to have children.. thinks it will affect my relationships negatively, suggested I will become vain.. and obsessed with my appearance.. she did throw in that she thinks I am attractive and that after weight loss I'll look amazing!! Bahahahhaha as if! but she isn't sold on the idea... she admitted that she has never been heavier then a size 12 so she didn't know how it felt! She was a tough audience!
To be honest these are things I really had not considered.. I had to giggle about me becoming vain and obsessed with my appearance it was kinda funny.. I cant wait to have that "problem". But I think I have a lot to get through before they are my major issues!
I am planning for the weight loss to take 12-18months at a minimum.. I don't think its going to be super rapid! I think she thought I'd wake up from surgery skinny... The word Skinny got thrown around a fair bit in our conversation... I never started this journey to be skinny... Skinny is a word I'd not include in my goals! I am doing this to lengthen my life and save my renal function.. Of course smaller jeans... "normal" clothes and gaining some confidence is all part of the journey!
I am sure she will have more questions.. I have to say I am so grateful I am only telling a handful of people! I do appreciate that she cares enough to ask the questions.. I feel a bit exposed by answering all the questions and sharing so much information with people but I think its part of the process and it kinda make me accountable!
Sleep tight K xx