Loving "fatty gets a stylist"

Yes I know odd name for a band... they are really actually called "Fatty Gets a Stylist" and their new song is The Tiger Inside Love love love it!!! here's a link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYFAs1Tgh0U

So in other news hmmmm

I've been off sick for the last 3 day again tonsillitis nasty nasty!!! Have spent some time just being very quite apart from listening to Fatty gets a stylist. I am feeling very emotionally overwhelmed.

The changes to my body have caught up with me I look in the mirror and think wow who are you ? I find my self patting down my stomach and hips, I find it hard to believe that is my stomach and that its actually loose skin there as well as fat but much less fat then before..

Yesterday I was laying on my side in bed and I had the strange sensation between my knees... so I had a look and feel... um theres no fat there anymore to cushion the bones when they are laying together !!! crazy hey I've NEVER felt that before!!

The scale does not want to move its just bouncing around... I had a crazy wanting to go on a crash diet moment last night... WTF...the voice of reason kicked in... "it's only been 2 weeks since it hasn't moved down and you have been sick for 10 days of that and haven't been able to work out.. also the unfill only happened a week ago". Thank you voice of reason..

I am thinking of having a dramatic haircut on Friday... Short like this ...



I had my long hair cut 5 weeks ago from half way down my back to about 4 inches under my shoulders and its not working... not long enough to do anything with and too long to leave down so I end up with it pulled back everyday.. I have had hair extensions before theres something about long hair.. its like a secret club.. maybe I like to hide behind it... Not sure if my face will look fatter with short hair.. I need to do something!

My food goals at the moment are fresh nourishing food.. plenty of fresh veggies and lean meats.. Food to help me heal and nourish my body.. Trying to avoid chocolate I seem to have had a bad KitKat craving lately bad bad...

K xxx

changing the way I do business...

So I am feeling like I've reached the end of phase 1 of the band process!

I am now at the lowest weight that I have been able to achieve with every other type of weight loss attempt since 2005.
I saw my surgeon on Tuesday and it was decided that I should have a small unfill .2ml. This month I have PB'ed everyday sometimes more then once.. I've used sliders to get through the day lots of up and go and banana smoothies. I haven't been able to eat fruit, salad or some veggies. My weight loss this month has been half of what it was the month before. My surgeon believes I've lost the easy weight and now have to work harder for the next stage.

So deep breath... Phase 2 has commenced..

1200cals a day veggies, protein, fruit
3 meals a day
2L of water
Exercise 4 times a week

I'd be really interested in what other people are eating and how much.. Need to refocus and smash through this mental hurdle..

Happy Davnce!!

So today I finally got some time to go clothes shopping!!! I went to a plus size store that I have shopped at for years.. Last time I shopped there I was buying size 20-22.. So today, I took a top into the change room in 3 sizes as I had no idea where to start I took sizes 20,18 & 16. Well I tried on all three sizes each time the top was too big... so I had to get the sales assistant to get me the size 14 the smallest size they do at this store AND it fitted I yelped loudly arhhhh excitement!!!

I also tried on some pants for summer 3/4 style.. after trying on meaning styles and sizes it became clear that the smallest size 16 they do in pants was too big in all styles!!! Now this is amazing and such a mile stone but also so scary, now I have to find somewhere else to shop!

After what has been one of the most challenging weeks at work, today on my day off I shopped for clothes, got an eyebrow wax, touched up my hair colour and got a pedicure, I now feel ready to face the world again!

More on the week that was next time...

K xx

New low!

After a massive week of births and work, I've managed to have a fairly good week..

In my normal pattern I gained last week every 4th week I gain anything from 500g to 1kg... Its very odd and sadly falls when I am a little hormonal and even though it comes off the next week I always feel fat and horrible for a week!

So I was excited to get on the scales this morning to see a new low... yay!

The scales bought me 109.9kg, out of the teens and into the last 9kg of the 100's....

So has started mission 9kg.... 9kg for Christmas! I am devising a plan!

Have a great week xx

Fat days and putting things in perspective

So Fat days ! hummmphhh it's been a while since I've had a true FAT day!!! I remember the fat days pre banding.. the self loathing.. the desperation to loose weight.. the "I'll do anything" vow.. the tears and the fear. The pre banded fat days were dark dark days.

Since being banded I haven't had a day like that .... but today was close ! Whats with that? I am the lowest weight since 2007, any day now I will be at my lowest since I was maybe 12 years old. So why today did I feel so horrible in my skin so sick of my body so sick of all the clothes I own.

Our minds and bodies work in the most crazy ways! I'll never understand it and I think I'll always have to tame the beast that is fat days!

I did have one thought... 6 months is the longest I've ever stuck to anything in the past... So here I am at 6 months and 4 days and no sign of giving up and couldn't self sabotage easily even if I tried! So yay for making the change I cant wait for th 1 year mile stone!!!

So in band news post my fill 2 weeks ago I've had a tight tight band. Fluids mostly since then, I had a stuck incident a week after the fill so went back to fluids. Ive just moved to mushies and they are finally going down nicely! I've noticed that I can only eat 1/2 cup of food over 30mins.

Tonight I had soup potato and leek homemade with leeks from my garden, then 1 egg scrambled with a tablespoon of organic cottage cheese. It took me an hour but i got it all down no slim to vomit no pb's !!!!!

So back to basic band rules

1. No fluids before, during or after meals
2. Eat slow
3. Chew chew chew
4. stay hydrated!!!! drink between meals!!!

K xx

6th months banded....

So today marks 6 months since I was banded!!!!

I feel totally grateful for this amazing experience..

6 months on:

* I have lost 25kg/55lbs
* I have gone from a size 24AU to a mostly 18AU but some 16's!!!!
* My energy levels are through the roof
* I can move better, kneel squat and stand at work for hours with out hurting
* I can RUN... for short periods
* I am exciting about the future
* I have halved one of my blood pressure tablets and stopped another completely.
* My renal function has improved
* I feel alive and so excited for what the next 6 months might bring

and the low's continue... just in time for weigh in day!

I got on 2 different scales this morning 6 times just to make sure they weren't lying!!!I cracked the 10's jumps for joy! So my 6 month goal came a week early........

That's 25.1kg (55lbs) lost in 5months 3 weeks !!!!

Hard to believe as I am bloated to the max at the moment and PMS city.... crazy!

Happy happy Sunday people!

K x